Helloooooo! (again)

Monday, July 2, 2018

I've been thinking a lot lately about what it means to be authentic. Authenticity is one of those weird things people talk about all the time that no one fully understands. What's the difference between being authentic and being original? Which one's more important? Do you need to be both? These are all thoughts that run through my head daily. 


I'm going to just address the elephant in the room head on -- it's been a while since I've been on here. Like almost 4 months. But, I think these past 4 months have been really important for me. This blog has been one of the most important things in my life since I started it over 5 years ago, but recently I had started to feel increasingly disconnected to it. At first I started to hate the name and feel like I had outgrown it. Was I even preppy anymore? (yes.) Then, I started to hate the design. It felt so childish. It got to the point where thinking about it all kinda made me cringe. Not. A. Good. Feeling. The problem was, I couldn't change the name because, as my dad nicely put it, "Preptista is my brand." So, I was left feeling totally lost with what to do. Then I decided to take a break and I told myself that I would let the break go on as long as I wanted it to until I decided I missed this. At one point I worried I never would. Then, at the beginning of last week I finally did and it was like all of a sudden I knew exactly what I needed to do.

You may have noticed that things look a little bit different around here! That's because they ARE! I totally redesigned the site and spent every night after work last week doing it. Guys. I AM SO HAPPY! Don't get me wrong though. My last blog design was great and exactly what I needed/wanted at the time. It was 100% the old me. But, people (and opinions) change as they grow. And boy was it time for Preptista to grow up. The new colors bring an instant smile to my face and the clean lines feel all grown up. It's 100% THIS me.

Now, back to the authenticity thing. This blogging world can be such a funny thing. Some days it's amazing and I'm so grateful to be a part of such an amazing community. I mean, without it I wouldn't have 2 of my best friends. Other days it is super toxic and difficult to handle. We all fall victim to vicious comparison cycle and when it motivates you to be better that's so great, but when it tears you down that's so not. I think part of why I didn't want to be blogging anymore also stemmed from feeling like I wasn't a "good blogger." But, what even is a "good blogger" anyways?! And does being one even matter? I don't think it does. I started this blog because I had so many things I wanted to share with world and I didn't care who (if anyone) listened to it. And honestly nothing has changed. As much as I love and appreciate every single person who has read a post, followed me on social media, or reached out. This is for me and I want to bring it back to that. If I want to write a lot, I'm going to. If I just want to share pictures, I'll do that too. If I don't have anything to say, that's OK TOO. I don't want to let the pressure of "not being good enough" keep me from doing something I love so so much and that is connecting with amazing people over our mutual experiences and love for funny, beautiful, and sometimes weird things.

So, here's to a new chapter of Preptista. I hope you stick around because it's about to get fun :)

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